PENARI MUNGIL


(Saya bukan seorang penari. Pun sangat jauh dari mungil. Tapi, tahu kan adegan 'Tiny Dancer' di 'Almost Famous'? Sensasi membahagiakan dari adegan itulah yang saya kejar..)



Hold me closer, tiny dancer

Count the headlights on the highway

Lay me down in sheets of linen

You had a busy day, today


("Tiny Dancer" - Elton John)





"...the quest for transcendence has always been closely linked to the ecstatic release of dancing."
(Resensi RollingStone atas sebuah album pop)

Mr. Darcy: "So what do you recommend, to encourage affection?"
Elizabeth Bennet: "Dancing, even if one's partner is only tolerable."
(Pride & Prejudice, 2005)


perempuan, 1983, lovesick soul, berjalan kaki, belajar menulis, menonton film, ingin keliling dunia, Billie Holliday, Jane Austen, 'Franny and Zooey', cerita pendek F Scott Fitzgerald, lagu-lagu sedih, kecanduan membeli buku second, deretan buku di lemari, berkeliling dengan bis kota, mengepak koper, menari bebas, Vogue, sepatu, bad boys, kopi, kuliner, foto, semua yang vintage, genggaman tangan, pelukan hangat, detil percakapan antara manusia, kegelisahan, kesepian, ruang pencarian, belajar dewasa, museum dan bangunan tua, hari hujan, sinar matahari hangat di hari berangin, airport, stasiun kereta, dan pertanyaan tanpa akhir

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Tuesday, February 23, 2010
Menembus Murakami

Jika saya pernah berkomentar sesuatu tentang Haruki Murakami--bahwa saya merasa tulisannya kaku, canggung, sampai tergagap-gagap membacanya--maka itu sepenuhnya adalah kesalahan saya sebagai pembaca.

Sampai beberapa waktu lalu (atau beberapa  bulan lalu), ketidakmengertian saya terhadap cara menikmati Haruki Murakami bisa berfungsi sebagai pembuka percakapan (atau email-email).

Ada Mbak Octopus (sekarang lebih sering dikenal sebagai @sheisacuckoo) yang saya tanyai tentang kenapa dia terus-terusan merujuk ke "Norwegian Wood". Pertanyaan itu sudah terlalu lama saya ajukan, tapi kata kunci yang saya ingat adalah "absurditas". Tentang momen-momen absurd dalam hidup. Ada sesuatu juga tentang kekosongan makna, atau mungkin saya mencampuradukkan itu dengan kegamangan.

Saya menghormati selera Mbak Octopus, tapi presentasinya belum meyakinkan saya tentang Murakami.

Ada juga @owlchild. Pesan dari dia, "try "Kafka on the Shore.""

Lalu, tentu saja, ada...(dan di sini saya mengambil jeda untuk mencoba mencari nama sandi yang tepat untuk orang ini) The Great Reader. (Iya, sepertinya ini nama yang tepat. Saya yakin, setiap buku yang ingin saya baca atau saya tanyakan, pasti dia sudah pernah membacanya)

Dalam sebuah surat elektronik untuk dia, saya mengatakan, "currently I'm trying out, yet again, for a Murakami. I find him stiff and cold and a touch 'awkward'. But I read that he once translated a lot of F Scott Fitzgerald's into Japanese and influenced by his work. This gets me curious. Also, I know people, whose taste I admire, liked him. So yeah, I'm not going to give up yet."

(Moral question aside: who sends this kind of email to a stranger? D'oh)

(Ini pasca-Bangkok dan membeli "A Wild Sheep Chase")

Jawaban atas Murakami dari The Great Reader baru saya dengar di sebuah lobi hotel di Kopenhagen. Katanya, "I find him very obsessed with cats."

"He is?"

"Yes, there are always cats in his stories. But I read him a long time ago."

Kalau saja saya sudah membaca beberapa cerita pendeknya ("Blind Willow, Sleeping Woman" dan "Birthday Girl") serta sebagian saja dari "A Wild Sheep Chase" saat percakapan itu terjadi, maka saya juga bisa bilang ke The Great Reader: "And what was his obsession with earlobes?"

What was his obsession with earlobes about, anyway?

And the answer is, I don't know. And I think, it doesn't matter.

That's just one small, random, slightly weird object that he comes to incorporate in his stories. Dan elemen kecil, acak, sedikit aneh itu yang sekarang mulai saya sukai dari Murakami.

(Sebagai orang yang cukup obsesif mencari makna pada berbagai hal, saya cukup lega bisa berdamai dengan kemungkinan 'daun telinga' di kisah-kisah Murakami itu tidak memiliki signifikansi makna apa-apa)

Daun telinga, adalah satu hal kecil, acak, dan sedikit aneh yang mulai saya perhatikan dari kepala orang-orang. Dan saya mulai memperhatikan (kalau tidak bisa dibilang, mencari, atau malah, menggali) yang kecil, acak, dan sedikit aneh dari hal-hal yang saya lihat. Mungkin bisa dibilang, saya sekarang sedang meminjam cara Murakami melihat dunia di sekitarnya.

(Walaupun saya masih harus mendefinisikan daun telinga seperti apa yang "beautifully shaped")

Perjalanan berangkat kerja tadi pagi, menggunakan P6, membuat saya memahami apa sebenarnya yang ada dalam sebagian cerita-cerita Murakami yang sudah saya baca. (Dan mungkin akan membuat saya bisa menikmati lebih banyak karya Murakami)

In my opinion: they're about nothing actually. His stories are about nothing.

I want so desperately to find some grand meaning in his stories, only to find out, there's none. They're just...stories.

Sekarang saya cuma menikmati cerita-cerita itu saja. Tentang, (ternyata) seperti yang sudah disebut Mbak Octopus jauh-jauh hari, 'absurditas'.

Tentang momen-momen interaksi atau kumpulan kejadian yang mungkin terlalu aneh untuk dilepaskan begitu saja. Tentang teman-teman dengan kebiasaan atau pernyataan unik. 

Memang tidak penting, tapi kok ya seperti terlalu ajaib untuk tidak dicatat.

(Dan untuk alasan yang sama, saya kerap menyimpan log percakapan daring dengan beberapa orang)

(Esensinya sepertinya sama, hanya saja Murakami merangkai cerita dengan jauh lebih baik)

Mungkin momen interaksi itu atau kebiasaan-kebiasaan unik punya makna besar, tapi mungkin juga tidak. Sama seperti telinga itu tadi.

Di sini saya teringat kutipan paling kuat dalam film "Ghost Town", diucapkan oleh karakter Gwen (Tea Leoni): "We just get the one life, you know. Just one. You can't live someone else's or think it's more important just because it's more dramatic. What happens matters. May be only to us, but it matters."

Karakter-karakter Murakami (dan cerita mereka) mungkin memang tidak penting. But they mattered. Dan bukankah hidup kita (ya, saya menulis 'kita') lebih banyak dipenuhi dengan momen-momen yang 'matters' itu daripada yang penting secara dramatis?

Posted at 04:49 pm by i_artharini

The dogs are dead
September 29, 2012   06:09 AM PDT
 
And they're still incurring evil from their prior life (ves).
There is justice. May Damnation reign.


There was a very real perception that bi-racial was much worse for the white than it was for the person of color. The liberal culture, which was designed and promoted with the god's tools to achieve their Apocalyptic goals, screamed racism when there was a very reasonable explanation for this reality::::
In this white punishment known as the United States the person of color has already adopted the disfavors/temptations intended for another race. But by associating/mating with a person of color the white is newly adopting the disfavors of another culture.
And this is the reason why people of color are not welcome in the United States. The gods control everything:::The perception they want to create, the thoughts they want you to have.
People of color can't recover from absorbing the temptations from two cultures. And why they become more and more like so many blacks in America:::Veterans at absorbing the temptations of two cultures.
To further illustrate this is why California's educational system/funding was ranked #1 when California was white:::Education being the basis of the affluent economic system. Now even public higher education has become unaffordable.

The gods placed us all into our own corners of the globe. As such for thousands of years we spent time and reproduced with out own kind.
This is why mobilty/travel, biracial unions/offspring and partaking of other cultures is a sin::::
Each has it's own elements of disfavor, and by experiencing other cultures you are being exposed to these disfavors, which if people may adopt will make their state even worse than prior.
The United States has been considered a "melting pot" where rejects from around the world were sent when kicked out of their motherland.
Remember, this concept of cultural diversity is an element of the liberal platform the gods used to promote societal decay, revealed on the map with the "beast" that is the SanFranciscoBayArea and the spread of social deterioration that spread to the rest of the country and eventually to the entire globe.

As with so many things in this life "less is more". Sex is one of those things. They used the liberal age to promote casual "free" sex intentionally::Combined with "women's lib" and their initiation into the "trenches" of the workplace as well as other issues like alcohol consumption the people experienced a mass masculinization of the females.
The gods use sex as temptation. This is why the most disfavored among us are preoccupied with it. While some may feel being well-endowed is a sign of favor the truth is just the opposite. And often the result is misogyny, a belittling of the favored gender, and stagnation of the people as a whole.
Less is more. When young women experience passing thoughts which say you're doing something wrong instead of fighting or dismissing the thought you should heed the warning. Sadly in today's world too many experience prolonged periods of promiscuity in their lives, whereas if married by 15 like throughout human history this disfavor was avoided.
Don't forget:::It is children who ascend into heaven, and the absence of sexual activity is one reason. Their general innocence is another, which should help you see the destructive nature of adult life in today's society.

Ronald Reagan spent the communist block into submission with defense buildup, and in the process increased the National debt from $1 trillion in 1980 to $6 trillion when he left office.
W charged both the Iraq and Afghanistan wars to the national debt, honest numbers to come.
The gods used W to initiate the "Great Recession" with deliberate legislation/regulation changes, allowing the sub-prime fiasco and corporate irresponsibility/criminal behavior which led to the multi-trillion dollar stimulous package, pocketted by Republican friends and donors::::$5 trillion charged to the National credit card.
This corruption is one element of evil in the party of good. War mongering is another.
Damned if you do, Damned if you don't::::With the Democrats you subscribe to social decay via liberlism, which WILL lead to the Apocalypse. Republicans are being used by the gods to bankrupt the United States, ultimately motivating people to the point of "desperation prayer" once anarchy presides::::Punishment designed to correct your behavior.

The gods behave monsterously in the course of managing Planet Earth but they demand people be good if you are to have a chance to ascend in a future life. Anyone the gods role play telepathically they have a legacy of hurting others, the more they hurt the more eggregious in history their legacy.
Not only is doing the right things important (praying, attoning for your sins, thinking the right way:::accepting humility, modesty, vulnerability), so is avoiding the wrong things important as well:::"Go and sin no more".
molskee
February 10, 2011   01:40 PM PST
 
There aren't always a grand meaning behind some work of art. In films, or literature. I think the best film and books are when you can enjoy the scenes or words like some music you listen to. Just like Da Vinci's Monalisa. Up until now the painting doesn't have any grand meaning that everybody understands. Monalisa's smile is mysterious, yet inviting. When the text is open for interpretation, then the context (the situation, the audience) gives the new meaning to each text. or something like that.
It's hard to discuss about Murakami. But i found the characters in his books are interesting and fall in love instantly the moment he describes them in the first paragraph.
@soepp
September 6, 2010   03:29 PM PDT
 
I had goosebumps upon reading this, the real one on my legs. And I almost shed some tears towards the end. You're a good writer.
 

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